Okie Dokie, so as of right now, the only thing keeping me sane is; reading manga, working on my multiple projects, drawing random sketches that relate to my projects, and a few select people I kept in contact with this summer while I went through multiple mental/emotional breakdowns, and some random people I ended up meeting online while extremely lonely (sad, yes I know, but they are good people and now friends of mine). I've been so goddamn lost, and now I have started to find myself again. I'm me, I'm sane again, I'm not as neurotic in the way I stopped clinging to people, I can deal better with being alone. Although in the beginning of this process I went absolutely insane and thought everyone was out to hurt me even some people I do dearly care about... That aside I have the same bleak outlook on life, which is absolutely insufferable and I really dont care because its part of who I am and I'll live my life as I should and as I want - Happily. I've also severed ties with people who are not good for me, and some people who I care about... but if they had been around, I know I wouldnt have gotten this far, those people are to good for me and I become dependent and cling to them because one in particular has such a bright warm nurturing and beautiful personality and so should be a model(yes I mean you Liz). I really didn't feel comfortable putting this on facebook since there are some people I'd like to not read things about my personal life. Especially the ones I'll be cutting out of my life. Even if I did, i separated myself from the people I cling to in nearly every way so they wouldn't be able to read it on the site anyways. In effect Im on the the road to recovery and enjoying my life and no one will stop me... for long...